The Jalebi Moment: Demystifying The IT Job

As now I have obviously become a part of the biggest myth in the Indian Job Scenario, the Indian IT Industry, the million dollar job(or rather the dollar wala job as the Indian Non IT Middle Class assumes it), I have deemed myself qualified enough to comment and appraise on the system, tell society what we actually do and quench the thirst among masses that have no clue what this I and the T does to people like us

Beginning with the hoopla that surrounds the IT Industry, obviously I won’t rate it over hyped to what it does and did to our economy. The growth in the service sector in India has been led by the IT–ITES sector, contributing substantially to increase in GDP, employment, and exports. The sector has increased its contribution to India's GDP from 1.2% in FY1998 to 7.5% in FY2012. According to NASSCOM, the IT–BPO sector in India aggregated revenues of US$100 billion in FY2012, where export and domestic revenue stood at US$69.1 billion and US$31.7 billion respectively, growing by over 9%.

Well let me clarify, the genesis of this post is neither to debate this statistical growth nor to talk about the pros and cons that this field has and will offer. This post is just my personal opinion and what I explain people in what you call in lay mans term as to what I do, at its very essence.

This is the revealing of the character(in the non sensical way) of the guy in the colored tag around his neck, it’s the mystery behind the glass doors, beyond the access oriented smart gates, it is what lies in those air conditioned sophisticated burrows, where the insomniacs the intellectuals like us abode for the latter part of the day

So it all begins with one day my mom asking me, out of her concern-sarcasm-angry mind, what the hell I do behind that 14inch LCD monitor till 1am in the night. To a person, though equipped enough to handle a desktop/laptop, who types her daughters leave letters on a system, justifying spending close to 10 hrs with that soul less machine wasn’t a tough task, when I took a reference point

I tell her, I make Jalebis. Yeah it’s that simple. Im a halwai making jalebis. Yeah if your eyes popped out reading my last statement, I reiterate I make jalebis, a traditional Indian sweet best enjoyed with samosas.

 

At my essence, as my manager designates me, I am a developer. A software developer(sounds big aint it!!).So what do I do and how do I do is a question concerning many. So here I am, making jalebis.

But let me tell u making jalebis is not that easy a job, when you are making jalebis at an international standard. This will be tasted by a lot and will be payed for again in a lot. So how do we do it?

Well it all begins in a 100square feet room(the meeting room), where my manager tells me, Ansuman we have a new project called “Paneer jalebi”, it would be served in the restaurants in US in July 2013,so you need to complete the same two months in advance. Ok paneer jalebi has to be made, timings are known, but how do I make the jalebi, what shape what color, how much sweetness how do I know? After all its gonna be My paneer jalebis, that will be served on exotic plates in some state in United States. So now the broth begins

First I receive a document from the people on the other side of the world that tells me exactly what kind of jalebi I need to make, the texture, the taste the look n feel. We the literate call it a Software Requirement Specification(SRS).I read it carefully, consult my other halwai colleagues take their suggestions and have a proper understanding of the jalebi

In the mean while, the client (the one who would be selling my jalebis at his store) changes the configuration of the jalebis. He now modifies the SRS and tells me, look buddy, we will try the paneer jalebi later on, right now just make me an ordinary besan wala jalebi. Ok fine, you will eat, you will sell it, you will pay us, ur jalebi concern is mine, so I change my understanding accordingly.

Having understood the requirements first I make a document of mine, where I tell them overall how I am gonna make the jalebi, I tell them the containers I’m gonna use, the amount of sugar, besan oil etc, at what temperature I will make it, how many I will make it. This glorious piece of document is called a High Level Design(HLD). This is then reviewed by the client and my other halwai friends letting me know if I understood the things well and if I’m missing anything.

Once approved, it’s time to actually plan the sequence of events, the exact way forward, and that is where comes the Application Design(AD) or Low Level Design. Here I talk about how I am gonna mix the battor, how I am gonna fry, what safety measures I’m gonna use, basically I am writing down my own receipe before even entering the kitchen. As my halwai friends and the clients are important they again review, comment and help me make it further better

Now is the time to make it. It is where we grind our heads together, put our hands down, and using all the skills and knowledge accrued over the past 1 year (yeah I didn’t learn anything in college) we try to make some of the finest jalebis in the world. Yes like even the best cooks, even we burn a little bit of our fingertips, sometimes the oil is spilled, sometimes the console shows errors, sometimes the code won’t run, sometimes the logic fails, sometimes we do make broken soft jalebis ,but then gradually going deeper into the jalebi we just make it right, the coding is done .

Phew hot jalebis are ready, and who eats them first, obviously me. This is called Unit Testing (UT) where I check, I made what I was supposed to make. Having done that, I deliver the jalebis to the environment team, who make it available across all counters of my company. A special team of testers whom I refer to as the tasters, do what is called an Assembly Testing (AT). They are not the one who made the jalebis, but have an idea of what was to be made and they validate my jalebis. Next comes IST another senior better group of tasters. This way a lot of people right from my company to the client tastes it, approves it or ask me to modify as and when needed.

Finally comes the day when the jalebis are out there on the market for whom it was intended. We call it deployment/production. It is a proud moment for us and we celebrate it over the night watching the progress of its release, gorging on pizzas this time literally

So this is it, I’m a halwai and I am proud of it.

The conversation between my family and me over the office lines are something like this

Mom- What you doing?

Me-frying jalebis(coding)/tasting my own jalebis(unit testing)/explaining my clients how Im gonna make the jalebis(HLD review calls)

Mom-Why you so upset today?

Me- I’m not able to make the jalebis right(coding issues)/someone else made rasgullas and didn’t make it right and I am asked to correct it(some one elses defects and their resolution)/the client thinks jalebis will be too sweet(conflicts in my AD with client specification)

As things are progressing, we are taking a very proactive approach on making jalebis. The sane people call it Agile methodology. Where in the client is one hell of a confused person, he doesn’t know what he wants and we meet every day over the phone and make jalebis together. It is basically me making jalebis everyday with client telling me what to do, what not to do, and the tasters tasting and approving disapproving it right away.

I hope by now my readers are in a trance lost in the tweaks and turns of a jalebi. Besides the halwais and the tasters there are others. The ones who make it possible for everyone to taste my jalebi(build/environment team),the support staff who takes complains and suggestions from the clients, the managers who basically are ostensibly there to see that the jalebis are made right. The training department which trains us on different jalebi making techniques and a hell lot

Having spend closed to a year in the jalebi making industry, though I haven’t made much, I can tell, jalebi making is fun. But then life is not all about making jalebis and the eventuality of boredom will finally seep in

Happy eating!!

I am hungry now!!!

The Framework of Suicide

The headlines of Malini Murmu a 1^st year IIM Bangalore student committing suicide, last week made a lot of ripples in the MBA world right from speculations for the reason to the twisted theory of how and why more so adding the IIM tag

It is estimated that over 100,000 people die by suicide in India every year. India alone contributes to more than 10% of suicides in the world. The suicide rate in India has been increasing steadily and has reached 10.5 (per 100,000 of population) in 2006 registering a 67% increase over the value of 1980. Majority of suicides occur among men and in younger age groups. Despite the gravity of the problem, information about the causes and risk factors is insufficient.

Perhaps there is no doubt that this is an extreme step taken by anyone and also perhaps nothing can explain a suicide other the person committing himself. Hoping to look for  a feasible answer to the same and a little bit of discussion with my friends I presume suicide to be something that happens when someone is trapped in a situation he knows he would never come out of

This mental block of not moving out of it is very hypothetical and depends completely on a person’s belief about the situation, his courage and will to come out of it and the gravity and perceptions with which a person has analyzed his situation

In the 20^th century farmer suicides in many parts of Uttar Pradesh were very common, perhaps the burden of debts, constant humiliation, and an ostensibly no way out looking situation forced many to commit this ultimate act of selfishness

For whatever the reasons maybe, when a person is so close to death he has to act very selfishly to kill himself, and he cannot blame anyone else for the same, because the courage to commit this sin comes from inside and cannot be superimposed

Talking of 21^st Century, from whatever cases I have come across in the newspapers they have mostly been related to relationship issues, breakups etc. Here again the person in concern has built up a mental block that whatever he does now, whatever heights he reaches there is nothing on this earth that is going to make him happy. He believes the day you slipped, I will never be the same again and neither would anything around me. This mental block as I said depends on the persons mentality and a person who has just not learnt to fail will be able to break this wall and move ahead, but unfortunately there are many who are not so emotionally strong and they really believe that this phase shall never pass and they will never be able to come out of it.

But the important thing to note here is the me me factor, that I will not be happy, that I will never be the same again and hence the selfishness I talked about. In the end everything boils down to me and myself and the agent causing suicide is only acting as a catalyst

All the good things in the past doesn’t count, all those love and care from parents, siblings and friends don’t count because at that moment you want to live only for yourself and no one else, it’s me my happiness and my life

Also suicides can be impulsive sometimes. We all have gone through the dark stages of our lives when nothing seems to be alright or getting better. In the height of depression and in the rage of the moment a person might commit an instant suicide. More often than not, not much thinking goes into it because they happen in a flick of a moment. But here again the mental block maybe so small is overestimated because of lack of thinking and hence the act

I have always believed that “This too shall pass” unfortunately both the good and bad times equally adore this theory and therefore it’s all about living the happiest moment to the fullest and let time take care of the worse one. My belief has not been negated yet once and I hope I don’t come across any such blockages which my courage fails to overcome.

Enter Modi!!

A day before Independence Day CNN IBN made an opinion poll which clearly indicated that amidst the entire furore over corruption, the congress is still the most favored party to win the elections if they are held the very day. But politics is volatile. With the way the Anna issue was handled and the kind of social, political, emotional outbursts on the street, congress really needs to think of its positions clearly.

In spite of the in-house divide with the speculation of the new PM for 2014 assuming the congress can yield the numbers again, of the conflict between the ignorant-old-saint and the Amul baby, a lackadaisical attitude of pulling up the elections might have seeped into the congress. But I say never underestimate anything, even a stopped clock reads the time right twice a day

Two news articles on the Times of India website made me think out of this compulsion of a pro-congress mania that is evident because of the rotten state of other players

While one of them was underscoring an opinion poll by Star News that showed BJP has surged in thanks to the Anna movement, and the other being a wiki leak cable disclosing a silent approach to project Gujarat chief minister Narendra Modi as a primeministerial candidate

The Bhartiya Janata Party had lost its aglow ever since Vajpayee put down his pads. The existing leaders are either irritants like Rajnath singh,or media savy politically dumb Sushma swaraj or the existing BJP president who is nothing more than a poster boy; Nitin gadakari

But this is one party that has had jewels like Vajpayee and posses people like Modi and Nitish kumar to name a few

The fact of the matter is that there is no better performer than Narendra Modi in India’s political structure. We all know what Gujarat has now become a state bustling buzzing with economic activities and life, an aftermath even of events like the bhuj earthquakes succeeding which immediately modi was elevated as a cm to the following of godhra riots

India is a land full of resources, intellects and everything that even the best supper power would loath of, but a lack of vision, the attitude of only being a problem solver with development only in the sense of resurrection and repairing of whatever wares we have is not the need of the hour

And here is a lot to learn from modi. He has a vision and he has some principles, he believes that the country has no apolitical strategy to confront terrorism.buisness is what keeps the people going and not emotions and sentiments as in West Bengal. And also to much liberty is not wise until the people bestowed on are not wise enough

Gujarat has developed into a pro business state; work culture subdues everything else and hence is the state progressing .But it’s not just the willingness to work but also the vision, the strategies of the people in the right places who are making things happen

Did you know almost all of the milk consumed in Singapore is supplied by Gujarat; or for that matter all the tomatoes that are eaten in Afghanistan are produced in Gujarat or the potatoes that Canadians gorge on are all farmed in Gujarat.

Having said what I have Gujarat has its history checkered with controversies and a kind of dominant rapo that modi has inflicted there. With the recent summoning of two IAS officers apparently whistleblowers in the godhra riot case, the apparent non consistent reports of the Banerjee panel and others may make us feel that he is a man who would have either his way or the highway. But in the present scenario that we are a little liberty curled here and there wouldn’t hurt much if we do look at the long term gains. Some have called him the Hitler of today, so be it, and Hitler raised a shattered Germany after the world war to a superpower in straight 20 years

But Narendra Modi has other issues to resolve first, if at all he is thinking of a national agenda. Narendra Modi is clearly a man in a hurry and he has every reason to be. There is no question in any one’s mind that he is the trump card for the BJP after Advani and Modi realises that but whenever modi has campaigned outside Gujarat it has usually been disastrous

Also post riots there is a kind off modi intolerance in the minor community more so outside Gujarat ,one because he is a member of RSS and two people outside Gujarat haven’t known the real character of modi,for had it not been so he couldn’t have been selected twice post godhra

Also there is some kind of media intolerance with respect to him. Editors like rajdeep sardesai and co haven’t been able to actually move ahead of godhra and keep revisiting the episode when it comes to modi. Hindustan times had the audacity to label him mass murderer weeks before the 2007 Gujarat elections. Also his outlook is pro-saffron.

Though im not completely satiated by the make shift government that runs us, bending at the slightest of arm-twisting by apolitical nobodies, but if be it someone other then the Nehru-Gandhi family ahead to lead us, it would be interesting to see, what this 61 year old visionary could do on a playground worth 1.3 billion people

Ramdev and his political asanas

Two years have passed since the 2009 Lok Sabha elections and UPA-2 looks in shambles ridiculed with scams, controversies and apparently weak leadership at the center. Perhaps this is a good time if one wants to enter politics for one it has ample of reasons to question the center and two if it does something good 2014 is not far away.

Corruption has been the buzz word. Not that it’s something new in the Indian scenario but unfortunately for the congress the bubbles are exploding quite to frequently. The fight for corruption took a head start with movement of Anna Hazaare and with the success of it a number of people who enjoy public lime light are now seeking an opportunity to cash in on politics

Baba Ramdev, changed the way Indians lived, for at least quite a large number of people. We spot people even in the general compartments of railways doing Kapalbharti and older women getting up at 6 o clock to catch a glimpse of him on Astha channel and try out some Pranayams to get rid of their backache. Baba has been successful in bringing about awareness about the strength and power of yoga, but the urge to diversify and to take his fame as guaranteed for his followings Baba now apparently seeks a political platform

But why a political platform? Politics especially in the Indian purview is about absolute power. I repeat what I have to say about power from my earlier posts, some believe money, but I say power is the world’s greatest aphrodisiac. Money doesn’t care who owns it. A bum can win it in a lottery, or a dunce can inherit it. But power is different, it is to own the world. It is to implement your own agendas. And Ramdev has agendas. He believes people who are homosexual are insane and proper mental check up is required. Time and again he has questioned the usage and quality of various products such as soft drinks, and if they are harmful so are liquors and all such things should be banned. He is a brand ambassador of yoga and ayurved and under his regime every hospital should have a yoga trainer and products from Patanjali Yog Peeth should take over Nestles and Johnsons

Questions might arise on my skepticism with respect to Baba, but I have my reasons for believing, more so because I have been avidly following him since my schooldays. Let’s look at his track record. First he appears on a religious channel twice a day and performs yoga. With the miracle of yoga more and more people become attached to him. He starts visiting places and organizing yoga camps with the motto of spreading awareness. Once he has received more than decent amount of lime light he urges people to contribute for his Patanjali Yog Peeth. His saffron robes more than the person helps fade away questions of doubt on the usage of this money. His shows that runs for an hour reduces to 40 minutes discussion on his yog peeth and the aspirations he has from it and 20mins of yoga for the people who pain stakingly come to see him. By 2007 products of Patanjali Yog Peeth were available in every nooks and corners of this country. Now for the past two years his yoga show has reduced into nothing more than a stage for political mudslinging. He speaks of statistics about students, patients and revenues in government offices; he speaks about measures and criticizes government moves. His political motives are more than clear now

Anna Hazaare stole the lime light with campaigning on corruption; his movement was a success, leaving Baba scratching his head. Hasan Ali’s case brought into the lime light the cases of black money and Baba sprang to action taking up this as a cause to enter politics

But Baba Ramdev is a Baba i.e. a saint and his work is not doing justice to the saffron robes he sports.

Saints are considered above human beings, they shun away all kinds of attachments and don’t desire for any kind of material comfort. They have patience and they never diverge from the path of ethics and goodness.

They don’t call themselves as the messenger of god as Baba did on the Ramlila Maidan, neither do they insist on arm twisting methodologies like hunger strikes. They show the path of healing and never undermine an authority by calling them cheats, liars, conspirators. They don’t move on to arm tactics whatever be the reason for so as Baba has urged that 20 young men from every district should come there. He will train them in both shahstra (vedas) and shastra (weapons).

We have had other saints and their area of social service has been remarkable, for example Satya Sai Baba.

Ramdev’s contribution to the evolution of yoga in India in the 21^st century is also remarkable but people should stick to whatever they are good at. We don’t want more diverse profiles in politics, we want changes

Freedom eeh..

A few days back I was reading “The White Tiger” by Aravind Adiga that got him the man booker prize and I was stuck across a phrase

“Do you know about Hanuman, sir? He was the faithful servant of the god Rama, and we worship him in our temples because he is a shining example of how to serve your masters with absolute fidelity, love, and devotion.

These are the kinds of gods they have foisted on us. Understand, now, how hard it is for a man to win his freedom in India”

Before I’m ridiculed by the controversies of mentioning a writer who has stayed half his life abroad and has come to criticize India which many feel has developed, to be ridiculed by the nuances of poverty and the likes, I would like to clarify that I don’t buy either of the opinions

Having said that I cannot deny that this particular phrase was much thought provoking asking me the very basic question, are we free

I classify freedom as emotional and social. Well we have always been bounded by some kind of imaginary chains throughout our lives. When we are small we are bounded by the responsibilities that our parents have for us and the obligations we are expected. Now I’m bounded by thinking of the future and my career. Some years down the line I would be bounded by people who don’t even exist in my dictionary right now

But I agree these bounding are necessary for keeping sanity at place, coz these are more of mutual obligations

I am more concerned about social freedom

I begin by asking is power good or bad, is hierarchy necessary. If yes, how do we make sure that the people promoted on the top of the pyramid have their ethics and ethos right?

With power comes responsibility but is there a mechanism that makes sure that the sides of the coin stick together

Some believe money, but I say power is the world’s greatest aphrodisiac. Money doesn’t care who owns it. A bum can win it in a lottery, or a dunce can inherit it. But power is different, it is to own the world

I now believe certain sections of our country and society, considerably many such sections, power have changed the obligations that they have.

Corruption has completely modified the way things work and become a part of the smooth flowing mechanism of this country. Guess what, even we have started using corruption to our advantage and for the middle class as well this has become a boon.

In certain cases it’s not corruption but the lax attitude of the people on the top, the concept of reversed obligations has whitewashed what we cherish as freedom.

How many times it has happened that you are not pleased by the teaching methodologies of your faculties and couldn’t do anything about it

How many times has it not happened that you are working under a boss u know he is literally screwing you but you cannot quit because of various financial obligations, including bonds and stuff

You pay taxes but are using broken roads, staying in the dark etc etc

Why is it that we have to pay more then what is required at government houses, be it taxation, mutation of houses etc

I took cat on 18november, morning slot. It was a slot that made news because of a total of 5-6 questions that were wrong.  Mind you there are three sections with 20 questions each. Every correct attempt takes a person miles above. Add to that the time spent, anxiety, tension and other factors surrounding these wrong questions. As the process suggests such question were reported to the authority, and promises were made that the needful will be done. Statistically giving marks to everyone who took the paper is unwise, I attempt 31,5 questions wrong I am given marks for them means my net attempt becomes 36,these 5X3 15 marks is a huge advantage to me, but not for the ones who got correct papers , if they don’t mark us I attempted just 31 coz I didn’t had 60 questions to choose but only 55,which again is not so good an attempt compared to everyone in every other slot. 

As the results came out, it was disaster, on talking with some of the people who took cat in the slot; I came to know they have marked us averagely between 80-90 percentile. Complains, media campaigns nothing brought about a change and many are here about to lose a year for no fault of ours

Having said all these is there a way out. Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies. In all the cases it has been highlighted that being at the bottom of the pyramid giving your attorney to someone else is no longer a humble submission. I don’t see a revolution in the next few years but I’m hopeful to being on the top of the pyramid in some time. But till then it’s all about being in the flow

What it means to be a disable

To start off with I’m a wannabe MBA and the genesis for righting this post comes from a horrible group discussion (GD) I had in the selection process of Tapmi. This year Tapmi has gd as an elimination round add to that I’m extremely bad at gds. Owing to the elimination condition the gd was one big fish market

It was the biggest fish market ever possible. Even the fishermen would run with their fishes.
I’m extremely bad at gds, and if it’s a fish market I hardly come in. So for the 1st 15min I was nowhere in the discussion. Every time doing the ”extending to what he has said” and 5 people are speaking and no one stops, my entire point got spoken out but no one noticed. I was all set for the embarrassment to leave the group after the process.

Thankfully at 1 point the panelist interfered and said our vocal decibels would not help and warned us, we got organized for a minute and that is where I gave 1 solid point.
Later again 1 more point and that’s it. Of the total 20min I had an airtime of maybe 30secs.The gd got over, I was all set to leave. The panel came in and announced the names that have been shortlisted, and surprisingly I made it

During the entire process I felt as if I’m a dumb literally or else the process has gone off to some other planet where my language does not belong. Interestingly I had a thought within the gd ”how would a deaf or a dumb participate in a gd like this”. As far as I know IIMs have reservations for disabled but exactly how is it that they go through the process. One If they have no voice to put or they can’t comprehend what is going on I guess he would be busy with his sign language in one corner while the discussion continues, if at all a scribe is allowed who is novice as far as gds are concerned he has no chance. On the hindsight being disabled and being special he might get an advantage with special emphasis being given to him

I continued the discussion with one of my friends and inevitably the discussion went to whether disables can be good managers. I reached to the consensus that the way they are managing their lives it indeed is a great bit of an MBA but honestly acutely disabled (blind, deaf, dumb) don’t stand a chance of being an able corporate manager. My friend who didn’t quite agree said you don’t know what it means to be one, as If he knew, but actually I have been there once and my memory faded back to the beginning of 2010

People who have seen me can describe my physical attributes in a single word “plump”. Well this tag has been attached since my schooling days and I hadn’t done much about it. Of late I decided, look now within a span of 2 years I would be pursing MBA in some other place, a new start a new beginning let’s do something about the plump thing before I start of there. So I frantically started yoga, pranayam, gym and what not. But I realized my diet has gone directly proportional to my efforts on weight losing. In spite of doing something about it I went hell bent on exercising. Increasing the counts everywhere every day, till one day I got up with a sore back

I’m a young guy, and young guys don’t have back pain so continued till couldn’t continue anymore. But the pain won’t stop. It increased and went up and up till a point that I was bedridden, my parents took a note of it, and honestly I was a bit paranoid for the first time

Initially I went for homeopathy, then saw a physician, got some x-rays, till finally dad came down and took me to a senior orthopedic at Apollo Kolkata .In the waiting room where young girls had come with their grandpas I had come as a patent with my dad. However in pain I’m, it doesn’t really express when I’m in front of some hot cute girls, but all I prayed was to save me the embarrassment, coz if the doc called me in front of them they might suffer some severe heart aches heart breaks

Slip disc it is, so be it, almost everyone seems 2 have it ones, my both maternal uncles had it, my neighbor had it, nothing to worry, take rest will be fine.

But things got worse. At one point one or the other leg used to get completely frozen. Moving around in the house, basic stuff became a nightmare. It was then I realized what amount of effort it goes into picking up a phone that’s ringing across my bed. You need to first turn and look where the phone is, move your upper part of the torso at snails space, rotate the one leg that’s good hold the one that’s not good, twist it bend it, scream a whisper and then you are up. Time passed medicines changed and over a month has passed. Mind it this was an important year for me, I had CAT in 9 months time, had joined TIME and missing out the initial few important classes, pressure from college was rising all this adding to the gravy.

By the end of feb, I was sick of stinking in a room. Visitor’s sympathy that used to sound good initially started irritating me. I saw my mom in a new light who amidst all the tension owing to me was at her best ,doing every little thing, right from running the phone down to me, to get me a mug and a tub to clean my hands post meals, making me more guilty of my arrogance and ignorance that I had.

But I’m an optimist, I’m a hell of a positive person, 2 days I have joined swimming and I have already started reading success stories on how to cross the English Channel. I looked at the positives. Now that I fall in the physically handicap category, I could get through IIM in a meager 90 percentile. People including my mom would never scold me again. At least for the next 2 years I will have whatever I want for in the meals, my pocket money is bound to go up

I also decided that I would go ahead with my life, I remember telling my mom on my bday(25^th Feb) that if by the end of this month If I don’t walk again, get me a wheelchair and think I’m a handicap but I have to go ahead, 1st march, whatever happens I am going to time again .I saw some videos by nick vujicic, read some inspirational stuff and almost all kind of disable personalities found a place in my YouTube downloaded videos.

I also ignored the cons, of all the things I could never do in my life (one of my idiot friend told me I would never get married and stuff) coz I knew somewhere deep in my heart that I would be fine someday. When I was in class 8 I was a great fan of WWE. I remember once when Triple H had hit HBK Shawn Michael at his spinal cord with a sledge hammer and he had been confined to a wheel chair, weeks later amidst all that tremendous background music and the euphoria he jumped up from the wheelchair and kicked it away. Now I know it was all doctored but having seen that at that point of time it has etched in my memory now, besides having seen my quota of inspirational Hindi movies where the hero gets up as far as he has legs, even the English classics like The Curious case of Benjamin Button has a similar scene

Honestly I knew I don’t have polio or anything like that its just silly disease and would heal soon

By god’s grace I met Dr AK Pal at Peerless Kolkata who just by seeing my condition said I had Sacroilitis a simple bone infection that would go away with some cheap medicines and it did. And it did so fast that in 2 days time I walked up the stairs till 5^th floor for my TIME class on 1st march (Damn the diseased lift)

Having said all these I feel extremely lucky that it wasn’t permanent. My heart goes out to all those people who are not that fortunate. I have started taking special care of myself and have become more cautious (not about my diet though) .Whatever happens, any disaster, anything that was not what I expected I still thank god for giving me eyes to see these wonderful things, ears to hear all the music life has for me, tongue to speak my words of wisdom and every other part intended to do what they should

I cannot help but feel distressed when I think of the disabled around me. All I have learnt from this entire episode is to value whatever we have, coz we are not going to no its worth until we lose it

Development Politics vs Identity Politics

Any government democratic or otherwise has agendas and propagandas. Polices that eventually burns down to politics. Any political party and for that matter even the ruling class will have policies be it either classified as development politics or identity politics. Development politics, the name itself is quite clearly stating that the agendas are welfare oriented, were it’s the politics for the people by the people and of the people, policies can have a long term return or otherwise, but benefit to the society is the main aim.

Identity politics is more about establishing a political party as a brand and marketing itself to stay ahead of the competition, it has got to do with able politicians who started off on the development foot and the successors are just extending the name and benefits of the previous good work that has been done. Party and power are the main motives of the politics and development is there just at fag end.

Identity politics can me more clearly defined in the context of power monopoly where there exist only one main power and no strong opposition to control it. A case in point can be the politics in west Bengal with the CPI(M) ruling the state for 34yrs now. Parties at the time of election are just identified by the fact that they ruled for so long and so forth and no scope of developmental thinking is even induced, coz they know, they are at the mercy of these parties which are bound to be re elected and as said the development at the fag end has always been there. But CPI(M) didn’t start of as identity politics, in the very first opportunity to act as the power holders, they connected with masses mostly poor an crushed out the communist culture if any that pervaded in West Bengal at that time, private players and industries regardless of their backgrounds were considered enemies and stress was given on agriculture and allied works which instantly struck a cord with the poor masses that Bengal had ,which consisted of the waves of immigrants from Bangladesh that came in two different lots. But now as evident West Bengal had earned a reputation of non industrial state and the actions of communist feelings disregard for the rich even though not so cunning still prevades in the lower masses of West Bengal .With trade unions in full swing, bandhs and the power of the masses to spill blood at the slightest context has turned the communist people of Bengal into institutions of egos and irresponsibility. But as every cloud has a silver lining, change is sweeping in West Bengal, how competent the present strong opposition in West Bengal would be is yet to be tested on ground but the powerhouses have known identity politics isn’t gonna work anymore.

Another example of development politics overshadowing strong identity politics is the win of Nitish Kumar from Bihar. a state so pressed in the darkness, underdeveloped illiterate masses have now come to realize, that funny talks up the podium and the dose of entertainment that Mr. Lalu Prasad has been giving them in his sweet humorous tone is not gonna actually help them survive, where every other state is running into technology and development. People have realized that the unbound pool of resources in Bihar in the form of resources human or other needs to be tapped and development is the way ahead.

But more importantly the kind of politics played it’s the people who need to wake up from their limbo and have rational logical thoughts; the assessment of every bit in and around them is the need of the hour. If it can be preached politics developmental or identity will have to keep development as their fore most agenda